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Awesome Adam

i was facebookin.. my friend posted this to my facebook wall. LOL.. she said, evrytime she see this pic, it reminds her of me.. okaaayyy... hahahahaha.. iwas like, "the awesome part or the narcisstic part? LOL"

then it hits me.. i kinda do that to myself actually.. quite frequent.. LOL.. ok.. well, i have my own reason.. it might not be acceptable, but, who gives a shit? come on...

so, i did say that kind of stuff.. like sometimes, when i look in the mirror, i went like, "adam, u r freakin awesome dude.", "nah, don give a shit about what people say, remember, u r a great psychologist. u can treat yourself.", "come on.. hensem sial", and many more.. like seriously, many more... hahahahaa. and i will surely burst into laughter just right after i said all that kinda stuff..

awwww.. so sweet of me.. and its sad no one actually said that to me.. LOL.. lonely dude. well, like keanu reeve said, "u need to be happy to enjoy life.. i dont."

its not that, i m somekind of narcissist or whatever.. no.. its just that, for me, every person on earth need somethin to make him happy.. what keanu said is right, but he had different ways to be happy, so he think that he does not live a happy life.. and for me, when there is no one there to tell me that i m awesome, i tell me myself..LOL.. those who read this, u really don have to go to my twitter or my facebook page or whatever just to tell me that i am good, or awesome or great or stuff like that... sokay sweetie... no biggie. i got Allah.. this is actually not a big matter to me.. life goes on. i m not paranoid and stuff..

i, actually,i wanna tell a story about me giving no shit.. but its kinda long already.. gotta make my post short and entertaining so that the future me will not be bored when he reads it... hello Adam, from year it is u r readin this post... remember future Adam, this past Adam loves you.. take care of your health and ur Iman.. Allah watches you all the time..

Makes Me Think

i was readin posts on this website, makesmethink.com.. this website is super awesome because it is very inspirational.. in this website, u post ur story.. whatever story u have to tell, as long as it is inspirational.. its like 9gag but in an inspirational and epic way..

so, there were lots of amazing stories in the websites. but what i like the most is this one:

"Today, on New Years Eve, at 11PM it will have been exactly 58 years since that night I was sitting at a beach watching the fireworks alone. I was crying because the father of my unborn child left me. A man walked up to me, sat down, and said, "I don't know who made you cry, but I would make them cry if I could." It was a corny line, and there was lots of other small talk. But we married a year later and lived a happy life together, until this morning when he passed away at the age of 78. RIP Richard. Your love will always MMT."

the story is very ironic.. i mean, a man, out of the blue came to a crying girl who sat alone at a beach.. it was a simple story.. who knows, a person u met at a beach is actually ur soulmate.. how simple and amazing it is.. i would love to do that.. i mean, not in a creepy and weird and pervert way.. LOL.. i mean, one of my dream is to help a total stranger, and make him think that there are people in this world that would help for nothing in return.. i would love to help some stranger lift some furniture and left... i would love to help some people carry their bag and walk away.. how awesome is that.. i feel like i am somekind of superman. LOL..

like someone said to me, "u don have to be a superman or have superpower to help someone.. helpin someone, does not necessarily be saving someones life like avoidin car accident, help from gettin robbed, help from falling from a 100 storey buildin.. we can actually help people by clearing their head.. be a good sport.. or by liftin their problems away.. as simple as that.. we will be amazed by how kindness actually makes both sides smile.. the helper and the helped... LOL... peace out.. salaam..

Being an Idol

oh my, oh my.. aku ada byk sgt nak cerita tapi aku ada sikit sangat kerajinan.. wahai kerajinan, msuk la dlam tubuh aku.. LOL.. ada crita psal cuti2 aku.. crita budak KEX.. crito saem aku.. video aku.. mace2... x rajin sangat laa.. aku.. i need motivation from the atmosphere... LOL

ni kisah masa aku cuti.. it was a really great holiday. i would say that it was a well spent holiday... i get to know lots of people.. i got a job.. i learned many new things.. Allahuakbar..

so, camni, i got this one junior, i cant remember his name.. i m a bad senior.. so this kid, masa aku form 5, dia form 1..skrang dia bru abis PMR.. just enter form 4.. so what's special about this one kid?? LOL.. macam rancangan disney plak.. "apa yang akan terjadi kepada Donald Duck? ikuti kami selepas ini.."

ok, camni.. when i finished my SPM thingy, during my vacation, my mother ada la crita2 psal ada sorang makcik kat kampung sebelah yang ada anak yg my junior.. so this kid told his mother, and his mother told my mother, "abe adam tu biso la mok... dio tu biso bahasa inggeris, kalu ado gapo2 majlis besar skoloh, dio ah jadi pengacara.." LOL.. to those who don understand kelantanese, he said that my english is good.. thats all, yang lain tu perencah kasi tambah rasa la... so he told his mom.. and my mom told me.. and i was like, "okay...." ye la.. bukannye aku nak cakap yang aku ni hebat gila smpai ada peminat tu biasa.. tapi, i don think that it was a big deal.. dia minat je.. i mean, aku minat kwan aku yg kerja jaga kedai musik... x hebat pon dia. LOL..

so, there was this one time, my cousin kahwen.. so i went. of course la, cousin aku... LOL.. so kat sana aku jumpa la junior aku ni ngan mak dia.. sbb dia satu kampung with my cousin.. so, i was being professional la.. dah dia tegur aku, aku pon berbual panjang jugak la.. one thing when u become a teacher, aku dah biasa sbb aku pon wat part time mengajar tusyen, so ada la aku jalan2 kat Kota Bharu, student aku mai tegur.. hahahahaha.. and aku x kenal pon tapi dah dia panggil 'cikgu' and 'sir'.  that means that dia my student la... so aku pon kena berbual panjang la, x nak kasi awkward. so ngan junior aku pon aku tanya la dia psal skolah, psal cikgu, psal budak.. macam2.. and aku notice la, yang dia ni bukan jenis talkative mcam aku..

msa dia nak balik aku tanya la, "bwak fon?"
"saya x dop handfon"
"owh, gini ah, klu ada gapo2 masalah oyak ko abe la deh"

yeaaahhh.. adam shaari being awesome!!!

so, masa cuti ari tu, his mother called me, tanya

"adam, ada x buku2 hok lamo2. buku2 latihe ko gapo ko.." so aku pon cakp la yg aku ada byk dan dia ckp dia nak dtang... nak beli. so about an hour later she came with her husband.. she came, early actually sbb nak jumpa my mother, but then my mother left early, sbb ada hal.. ada my aunt yg teman dia.. so masa dia dtang tu, dia ckp la psal my junior ni.. dia ni kat skolah jenis kuat mengelamun, byk main, x fokus.. so i cakp la, x yah risau la, sekolah akan pikir cara la tu.. x pe. sekolah nak jaga nama.. so dia ckp la, si A(my junior) ni, dia tgh fikir nak amik prinsip akaun ke tak.. sbb dia bleh amik.. kelas alpha kot.. so mak dia ckp la yang si A ni ckp "abe adam dulu x amik subjek nih.. ummm.. ore x se amik etek eh.." and i was like WHAT!!!!?? am i such a big influence? dulu aku igt dia stakat minat je tau... but as the story goes, his mother told me, like i m a big inspiration to him... cam aku ni idola.. LOL.. like more than half of his family actually like me.. bukan nak riak bongkak.. NO... mak dia tgh ckp ni.. crita psal anak dia. aku dah nak nangis ni.. terharu. aku cover la.. dan mak dia ckp nanti dia nak dtang umah aku nak belajar..so aku pon okay je la.. bukan nye aku ni sbuk sgt pon.. dan msa dia nak blik, dia ak byar buku tu.. aku cko amik je la.. aaku nak bantu anak dia macam mana lagi.. bagi buku tu kecik je..

just to clarify, diorang orang susah.. being such an inspiration to them means a lot to him. aku sgt suka words ni.. "u dont have to have a superpower to help people".. aku pon bru prasan yang sometimes, we do small things.. people see it as something big.. and sometimes, we say few words.. people were inspired... so, kpada sesiapa yg mmbaca kalau ada.. keep on doin good works, people.. we never know who we inspired... Hidayah milik Allah.. kita x tau.. OK.. salaam..

i wish to be told that

why dont we just tell ourself what we wish others would say...

for me..
" u r a great friend.."
"dude, i love you.."
"let hang out together.."
"thank you.."
"dont worry dude, i am here to support.."
"adam, aku nok peluk muuuu!!!"
"i miss u a lot dude.."
"u can do whatever u want. i am here just to support."

dan byk agi... but bila pikir balik, aku penah x ckp mcam ni kat org lain.. maybe it was our fault at the first place.. we should think about what we wanna hear and say that to others... hummmmm

sarcasm.

me, has worked at cyber cafe for a month and half now. and i want to story story about this one mat saleh, he came to the premise, and he wanted to use our computer.. just like a normal customer.

he usually use computer yang no 1 until 4.. those computers are the high power punya la and more user friendly.. but that day, somehow those computers are occupied... well, ye la.. we dont reserve any seats la for customers... so he had to use no 9 or something..

x lama lpas dia panggil aku ngan muka x puas ati.. "i cant find the usb  port.. where to put my usb port???" or somthing like that. aku pon tunjuk la kat mana nak letak...

aaaannndddd..... not long after that, he called me again, for the same problem.. memang aku akui pc tu susah skit sbb usb port dia cam diagonal and shit.. serong cam.. susah la nak cucuk pendrive.. pastu aku pon sruh la dia pindah pgi pc lain... yang lih user friendly... pastu dia pon pkai la pc tu.. diam la sit kejap.. tp sbelum tu dia dah mencarut dgn FU** bagai.. aku diam je la..

dlam about stengah jam lpas tu dia pon panggil aku blik sbb komputer dia hang.. aku pon pegi la.. nak tengk la apa yang aku bleh buat.. pastu aku pon rujuk la bos aku kot2 dia ada bleh baiki ke.. dia pon x ckp x bleh.. mat saleh tu pon dok bising psal "ive been trying for so long to put my files to my pendrive. its not seems to be working. bla bla bla. u cant restart or all my files would be gone bla bla bla."

pastu bos aku ckp kat aku yg theres nothing that we can do. dah hang. so i told him "the computers hang.. jammed.."

dia balas "oh jee.. thanks for telling me.. i didnt know bout that.." pastu dia pon kemas barang2 dia.. pastu "fuck!!" dia sbut slow la.. tapi aku bleh dgr la..

then i noticed.. that was the first time aku dengar sarcasm dlam bahasa org puteh nih.. hahahahahah... that was funny.. rude.. but funny.. hahahah.. and to you mat saleh. jangan igt aku org mlayu kerja jaga cyber cafe x pakai kot aku x paham la bhasa ko ataupun sarcasm ko.. i got band 6 for writing la wei.. i can fucking understand u..

moral of the stories.. there is nothing great about mat saleh.. x tau la knapa bangsa kita dok puja sgt... bia la kita minat individu, bukan bangsa...

a bestfren..

for me, a bestfren is a person, whom u jadi gila or be the person u r in your toilet alone at ur house.. because, that is when u become urself.. ur true self.. a person that u can talk talk talk talk and no boring boring.. tup tup, its 2 am already... and u can 

aku ada bberapa org yang aku consider sbgai besfren.. sorang tu, memang.... ummppphh laaa... i know him since i was form 1.. we have been close since then... lepas tu, aku ngan dia we both got that surat twaran msuk sekolah faris petra.. and as expected, he sat next 2 me in the class... memang dah sekolah asrama bang.. hari tengok muka sama... aku dah rapat gila2 la ngan dia.. and when we naik form 5, we both got the same class..

memang la, we got into like thousands of fight... but at the end, dia jugak the person that i went to, and crita msalah and mengumpat.. hahahahaha.. i remember we have this book, that we share few pages... on those pages, we wrote all those hajat2 kat skolah asrama.. like "nak katil baru.. :(", "nak balik.. rindu ko mok", "nok bantal golek".. hahahahaha.. bangang gilow.. aku rindu ko mu weh..

and this other fren is a person yang x rmai kwan sgt.. dia kesian la... dia punya high school life dia x best mcam org lain.. bila aku kenal dia bru la aku tau kenapa dia x rmai kwan.. dia weirdo.. bangang.. patut la... aku kwan ngan dia pon mula2 just nice la.. i mean come on la, dah orang tgh rpat ngan kita, kita x yah la cam, "ko pehal, terhegeh nak jdi kwan aku.." hahahahaaha.. jahat gila dajal tu.. lama2 best jugak kwan ngan mnusia pelik ni... hahahaha.. its fun la, when normal people are mainstream..

gaduh plak.. biasa la tu.. bukan semua org perfect.. penah, once.. i really pissed off.. dio pom x tau bakpo.. doh dio tu meme blur pom.. #bangang .. lpas tu aku malas contact dio.. aku cam mapuh gi la.. tapi ye la.. kawan baik kot.. lama2 rindu gilo weh.. pahtu contact jugop.. bru2 nih dio msg, tanya btul ko dio ni besfren aku, dio x se seko la.. walaweh..

sore agi spupu aku.. dah idup nge dio dari seingat aku dari aku lahir la.. sapa la aku umur 19... gura ko gapo nge dio la... walaupun dio nih "lucu" as in blur dlam byk hal.. tapi still la.. dio mudoh baso..